you know how you start off the day feeling amazing and great and then as hours pass, you start messing up and beating yourself up…thinking too much?
i’m doing that right now. i think this is bad.
it’s just helping me see that i don’t have any true friends. i want to cut off all connections with everyone. delete everything so nobody can contact me anymore.
Some people are way too obsessive about things. There’s no need for such a strong attachment for something that holds no importance to you. Stop getting involved in lives that you don’t even know or even better, those that do not know of your existence.
This sounds ignorant, but I guess if you knew the situation, you would agree.
i love how my phone has been getting spammed with text messages today. i’m pretty sure i’ve had to delete my texts at least twice because it keeps filling up. lfdksjafldkjsala
i woke up to like 13 text messages. lol i miss out on a lot when i sleep.
i wonder if people are just ignoring my messages or if they don’t get them. for me, i automatically assume the worse in people. i convince myself they’re ignoring me and they probably don’t like me, so it makes it harder and harder for me to talk to them. it kind of makes me anti-social. after constantly dealing with ignored messages, i don’t really know what to think besides i am wasting my time and i’m being stupid. it even happens when i’m waiting forever for a response from someone. i just give up thinking i’m bothering them.
i always assume people think the worse in me. i don’t know how to think any differently. a lot of the time, i convince myself that people just secretly hate me - no matter where i go, i feel hated, unwanted, annoying, stupid and ridiculously useless.
i’m not sure if that’s normal.
still kind of upset over everything that happened yesterday.
i don’t know. whenever all that stuff tumbles down on me like that, i start making myself sick again - physically and mentally. it’s just how i handle emotions. i’ve been trying so hard not to take it out on anyone, and i’ve been doing well for someone who has completely lashed out on the people who have disappointed me or hurt me in these last couple of days. i’m not even sure how i’m supposed to deal with this death either.
this makes me hate people.
i hate getting caught up in the middle of a fight. i somehow become the messenger every time, and most of the time, the messenger is the one that gets shot by the two opposing sides. i don’t get it.
it’s so frustrating. you have to mediate everything, and you’re the one that loses even when you’re the one who’s trying to save the friendship and help them.
when people tag a million things under a picture and i want to reblog it….
kljfdslakjfdlaskja tumblr, you suck.
and what’s with the million tags?
